Sorry for not telling you guys on how my day went yesterday, but truth be told there wasn’t much to tell – I had trouble falling asleep the night before and didn’t actually drift off until about 6AM, then I had to get up for a 10:30AM doctor’s appointment XP Fun times. After getting the referral I needed so that I can book an appointment with a counsellor (yay!), I promptly fell asleep in my grandma’s recliner and didn’t wake up until about 4 in the afternoon. It lucked out that Kurt was off early from work, so he picked me up about an hour later and we spent the evening hanging out and watching the latest Tabletop episodes 🙂
Today, I’m still feeling pretty good… But I really can’t will myself to get much done. My grandma’s gonna be spending the night at my aunt’s place, and I’ve been helping out my mom with getting her ready when she asks me, but other than that I haven’t really started on anything else (apart from this blog post XP). It feels like today I am completely out of spoons…
… Yeah, that sounded weird, right? I’ll explain; I recently learned about something called the Spoon theory, and how it aptly explains my struggle to be productive and motivated. To give you a quick lesson, here is the definition from Wikipedia:
“The spoon theory is a disability metaphor and neologism used to explain the reduced amount of energy available for activities of daily living and productive tasks that may result from disability or chronic illness. “Spoons” are a visual representation used as a unit of measure used to quantify how much energy a person has throughout a given day. Each activity requires a given number of spoons, which will only be replaced as the person “recharges” through rest. A person who runs out of spoons has no choice but to rest until their spoons are replenished.”
Nowadays there’s a bunch of different metaphors you can make that help to modernise the Spoon theory; Like those app games where you have a limited number of actions, and once you run out you have to wait a certain amount of time for them to replenish. OR, in this example, you can pay for more actions via micro-transactions. That might not fit as well when you’re talking about mental illness…. unless you have enough money to pay other people to complete the tasks that you don’t have enough energy or motivation to do 😛
Which leads me to today, which is a zero spoons kind of day. And yet my brain is wide awake and firing on full cylinders at the same time, probably because I’ve got some exciting projects I’ll be working on in the near future. One I can’t tell you about, but the other one involves mine and Kurt’s 2 year anniversary coming up next week ❤
Can’t believe it’s been 2 years already! It both feels longer and shorter than that since we first got together, if that makes any sense. I’m not going to go tooo crazy to mark the occasion, but I still have a couple of ideas to make the evening memorable.
I had a really great idea for a gift, but was frustrated to learn that it doesn’t ship to Canada XP It’s this Bedroom Game kit thing, and I thought it was so clever and original – plus the 2 year anniversary gift is usually cotton, so that would’ve been a bonus XD You get a big die that you roll and a plush game piece that you move along the spaces, where you’ve already written fun things to do when you land on them. Suppose it’s for the best – they only make the kit for Queen and King size beds and Kurt’s is one size below Queen anyway.
Reeeeally wish I could tell you about the other project that I’m working on, because it’s a big one, but I’m afraid I’ll have to wait until I reveal the big surprise 🙂 Suppose that’s all for today. I’ll be seeing Kurt again tomorrow, and hopefully before he’s done work I’ll be a little more productive around the house.